I got a job!
Being unemployed since mid-January has been trying. Looking for a job is literally the worst job I have ever had. (Working retail might have been worse.) This economy does not make it easy. Many listings have a long list of job duties coupled with a very small salary because so many people are out of work. It is so frustrating to send out resume after resume and hear nothing back.
My last job had a 60 mile a day commute. With gas prices what they are, plus my sanity of driving through a tourist mecca, I wanted something closer to home. I am so lucky that everything came together and I found a job with a 20 minute commute.
I know J is relieved because with him going to school full time, we really cannot afford for me to be out of work.
I start next week and I really couldn’t be happier.
The bad news is from a recent appointment with my Endocrinologist. My blood work was great (thyroid, glucose, and cortisol levels) as it has been for the last year. The issue is that I still have a nodule on my thyroid that is active. When you do the RAI, it typically kills all thyroid function. Mine did not.
The doctor decided to look at my nodule with an ultrasound and noticed that instead of one that I had six months ago. I now have two. It is most likely nothing but he suggested I have a biopsy to rule out cancer. Most nodules are not cancer. Thyroid cancer is very treatable but I am still freaked out. I thought that minus the regular blood work, I was done with dealing with thyroid issues.
So there it is, some really good news and some news that is probably going to be fine.
Being unemployed is hard work.
Waking up each day, searching through job postings, and hoping that you get at least one interview is not as easy as it seems. The rejection and the feeling of dread that you may be unemployed for the long-term is stifling. I do feel lucky that I have friends who are keeping me updated when they hear of an opening and are helping me get my resume to the right people. It helps to know that there are people out there rooting for you.
Searching for a job is a lot like training for a race, I am putting in my time and hoping that it pays off in the long run. Hoping that each small piece, like networking, will help get me to the finish line.
The most difficult part of all this is the betrayal. My former job did notify my department of the imminent elimination but I was told in a meeting that they were creating a new position for me and that they did not want me to leave. I was even sent a rough idea of the new job duties and told to hold tight for an official job opening to come. That never happened and I was told that they were unable to get the funding for the new position on the same day I was informed about the lay off.
We cannot change the past but I feel like a fool. I should have started looking when they first spoke to us but I believed that they would want to keep someone who worked there for nearly five years and had been consistently successful. I was wrong.
Having so much more free time has allowed me to focus on some long-term projects that I had little time for previously. I am the President of the Polk County Young Democrats and really want this group to have a better social media presence. Now I have time to spend on that Twitter account and the Facebook fan page to hopefully attract more members. It is so important to me to get young people involved in politics, especially in an election year. I know spending more time working on that goal is well worth it.
I am well on my way to one of my 2012 goals of reading 100 books.
For now, I will keep moving forward and hope that this difficult time is temporary. That everything will work out in the end.